Thanksgiving!

I know that I haven't posted in a while, and that's because I've been super busy!

Yesterday, we went down to Mama's and Carol's houses for Thanksgiving. Josie wore a little black and white striped dress with pink leggings. She was so adorable!

We ate lunch with Carol then headed over to Mama's house. Beth and Aiden were gone to my Aunt's house, so it was just us and Mama. The food was sooooo delicious!!!!!!!!!My mom is the world's best cook!

Josie still has the flu really bad so she was really grumpy and by the time we got home last night, she was ready for bed.

I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving!

Josie's birthday!

So Josie is officially 1! It's so hard to believe that it has been over a year since we drove to the hospital, scared to death of going through labor. She is so big now! She's pulling up constantly and crawling everywhere and she's going everywhere all the time. I can't believe she's so big and smart and beautiful. She's looking more and more like Tyler every day, but every now and then I can see a spark of me in her.

We had her birthday party on Saturday (9/3), the day after her actual birthday. The night before, Carol and I went up to the church to decorate. The lady was supposed to meet us to open the church at 4:30 but when she got there, she didn't have her keys. She knew of another lady that had some keys so she called her and that lady agreed to bring her set of keys when she got off work at 6. I was a little frustrated but it was a simple mistake, so I went back home and came back at 6.

When we got back there, the lady still hadn't showed up. Now I was really frustrated. We ended up waiting until about 8:45 for the lady to finally get her ass in gear and get there. She was really nice, but I mean, seriously?! It was my baby girls' birthday and I had just wasted the afternoon away from her. Ugh!

Anyway, we decorated with hot pink, green and white streamers, layed out the pink table cloths and set the tables. It was so beautiful! We decided to wait until the day of the party to blow up balloons because I was afraid that they would deflate before the party. Her theme was hot pink, lime green, and white with monkeys.  Everything was perfect :) Before we left, Carol got the keys from the lady because she said that  she didn't want the whole delay thing to happen again before her party.

So the big day came and Josie was in a really good mood that morning. I went ahead and got ready and painted on the car windows. (Happy 1st Birthday Josie!)(Baby Nub is 1!)and (Our Baby Executive is 1!) The plan was, that I would go pick up Beth and the birthday cake and meet Carol at the church at 12:30 so we would have plenty of time to decorate the rest of the stuff and set up the food. So I headed to Mama's and picked up Beth and the cakes, then headed to the church.... Only when we got there Carol was no where to be found.

I called and called, sent multiple text messages and she wouldn't call or text back. I was so furious! I mean, seriously?!?!?! She got the keys and promised that she would be there at 12:30. Now it was 1:15 and I couldn't get in touch with her. My heart was breaking because I knew that this was my baby girl's first birthday party and it was not supposed to be like this. She finally showed up and didn't even apologize to me. She just said the reason why she was late, but never told me sorry. I think that I deserved that at least. She could tell that I was furious so she didn't talk to me any more after that.

Because of that late start, I was so stressed throughout the entire party. She didn't get the ice like she said she was going to, people started showing up before all the food was out and the balloons were up and Josie was 15 minutes late for her own party. It was ridiculous, but Josie didn't mind. After Josie did her smash cake and we got her cleaned up, everyone had already been eating. I was trying to take care of Josie (who since she had a cold was in an incredibly grumpy mood) and eat at the same time. Then Carl kept on and kept on about cutting the cake. I really wanted a picture of the three of us in front of the cake, but with him yelling every 5 seconds, I gave in and cut the cake.

After I finally managed to let go, everything went well. Josie was extremely fussy when it came time for opening presents and I ended up doing it. All in all, the party was really nice and we had a good time. Josie enjoyed herself and that's all that matters. :)

I'm a terrible blogger..........but Josie is standing up now!

Wow. I'm a terrible blogger. I haven't had the time to write much on here, but tonight I had my computer out so I figured I would jot some stuff down.

So today was my first day back at school. I got up this morning at 7 am and left to meet Katy at school by 8. We went up and checked out the gym so we could start working out on Thursday. After that we went into the book store and bought some really cute shirts. I got one that says, "Dalton State Nursing: Nurses have more patients." Haha. It was so great. :)

My first class of the day was Psychology and I had that one with Katy. It went pretty well and I think I'll enjoy the class. I'm really excited to learn about the prenatal and childhood sections. :)

My second class was damn near impossible to find. I had to turn down like 4 hallways and go through a snack room to a hidden hallway. lol. It was Speech class and the one class that I'm incredibly nervous about. The teacher seems really nice and upbeat and she seems really understanding about everyone's apprehension about public speaking. I think it will be interesting and I'll try to keep the blog updated as the semester goes on.

So when I got home today, Josie was standing up in her play pen. I can't believe she's doing that now. It amazes me how much she's grown! She stood up for the first time on August 12th and now she's doing it all the time. I'm so proud of my beautiful baby girl. :)

Time flies....

Well, I guess the saying is true. Time flies when your having fun. Sorry I haven't written in a while. Most of the time when I get home from work all I wanna do is cuddle up with Josie. :)

Ugh! I was supposed to be crocheting blankets for the NICU at the hospital, but I have yet to turn any in. I'm just so tired in the afternoons and it's so hard to try and find time to do it. I know that that is really selfish of me, but I guess I'll just have to work harder on it.

I've been really overwhelmed lately. Like, I'm tired from the point I wake up to the time I go to bed. It's all worth it though. :) I'm just kind of worried about starting school next week. That's just going to be one more thing....

Oh well. Life is short and I'm going to enjoy it!

Birthday Theme!!!

So last night I got the bright idea that I was going to change my lip ring. Well, getting the old one out and putting the new one in wasn't a big deal. I couldn't get the ball back on though. I worked on it for a little over an hour and my lip was just too swollen to do anything with. I finally decided I would leave the ring in without the ball and hope that it didn't fall out. It managed to stay in until this morning but it just kept twisting and getting more and more sore. I finally decided to take it out completely.

Tyler and I took Josephine to mama after I got off work and we went to look for party stuff. We decided on the "Mod Monkey" theme for her birthday. It's bright green and pink with cartoon monkeys. I think it'll be really really pretty. I hope everyone will come but if they don't then that's fine too. We'll have a great time either way. :)

Well I'm heading up to bed! :)

Today has been a good day :)

Well, the title says it all. Today has been a good day. :)

I actually managed to be on time (barely, but it still counts!) for work this morning and the day there went pretty smoothly. I had to leave work to go pick up supplies for work from the grocery store, so I did all of my errands while I was out, which meant after work I got to come straight home to Josie bug. :)

When I got home she was so cuddly and she was in a great mood. I sat on the bouncy ball and bounced with and she just layed her head on my chest and played with my necklace. Gah! I love that kid.

I finally got the windows upstairs covered with plastic so maybe that will help insulate it up there and keep it cooler. I know it's not going to work miracles but it would be nice if it could drop it a degree or two. The maintenance man came and looked at the vents and everything the other day but he said it was so hot because we had the vents closed. Like, seriously?! I know the vents were open because I'm not a complete idiot and that was the first thing I checked. Oh well, maybe this will help.

I also brushed Josephine's teeth for the 1st time with her new big girl tooth brush today. It was hard to get around her tongue though because she just wanted to eat the toothpaste. Ha ha. I'm going to start doing it at least twice a day so maybe she'll get used to it. :)

Well, I'm gonna head up to bed. I'm working by myself tomorrow so I've gotta be good and rested up to deal with all the crazies. Haha.

Until tomorrow

Today has been........ yeah.

Well today has been very ugh. I was late for work this morning which I guess set the mood for the entire day. At work this morning, I was playing on my iPod and then it just froze. I turned it off to try to see if that would fix it, but it wouldn't shut off all the way. The Apple logo was still in the center of the screen. I decided I would just let it be for a while and when it did finally decide to turn back on, it said that I needed to connect it to iTunes. I was so incredibly frustrated!

So on my lunch break I plugged it up and it said that it had gone into "recovery mode" and that I would basically have to restore it and lose everything. I was literally crying. That was over 1000 pictures. Gone. I had no choice but to restore it, and then that wouldn't even work. I called customer service and they were absolutely no help (of course) and then they had the nerve to say that they were going to charge me $29 just for calling them. Needless to say, that didn't happen. lol.

After multiple attempts, I finally got my pics and stuff back from June 11th back to when I first got my iPod. But now my apps aren't on there and they're not in my iTunes either. Ugh!

Oh well, tomorrow has got to be better!

Ugh! Procrastination!

I haven't written on here in a few days because I am the worlds worst procrastinator. I get home from work, play with Josie, get her in the bed and then I think about writing on here, but I just never get around to it. I'm going to try my best to be more consistent with it.

So today while I was at work, I "liked" Huggies on Facebook and I saw where everyone had been posting on their wall saying that Babies R Us had jumbo packs of diapers on sale for $5! I printed out the ad and after work Beth and I went to Walmart. They price matched it and said that they had a limit of 5 packs. So I got 5 packs at Mama's store and 5 packs at the new Walmart. ( Funny thought: Why do we still call it the "new Walmart" when its been there for like 13 years? Hahaha)

By the time I got home, Josie was taking a nap in her play pen so I ran upstairs to get a shower. When I got out, I got to play with her on the bed for about 3 minutes then she went downstairs, Ty gave her her bottle and she was off to bed. I hate days like this. I hate being away from her so much. I don't want her to grow up and resent me for being away so much. I love her more than anything in this world, and I hope she knows that if I could stay home with her I would. But its just not possible right now. I don't know... I'm just bummed.

I didn't eat supper tonight either. Even after typing that, I know that I should go downstairs and find something to eat, but it's too late to eat tonight. I'll make up for it tomorrow. Well, I'm gonna go to bed. Goodnight world. Until tomorrow.

Coupons!!!!!!!!!

I've had a pretty good day today. :) After work, Beth and I went to a coupon class at the senior center in town. I thought it would be really stupid at first but I'm really excited now. :) She showed us how to "stack" coupons and end up getting stuff for free and she showed us sites where you get points which are redeemable for gift cards and even cash. I'm excited to get all this stuff started. :)

I can't wait to start school!!! I know I say that every year but then after a few weeks of it, I say I can't wait for it to be over. lol. I'm kind of frustrated though because normally they put our school money on our cards a few weeks before classes start so that we can get school supplies with it, but this semester they said that the money would go on 2 weeks after classes started. That's crazy! That means that I'm going to have to buy my books out of pocket and that's not going to be cheap at all. :( I'm also worried about how much work I will be missing. I'm definitely going to have to start working on Saturdays to try and make up for it. 

I've also been thinking a lot about what we are going to do when our lease is up here. I don't know if I want to renew it for another year, or look for another place. I really want to save up and buy a few acres of land and a double wide trailer (brand new!). That would take a lot of money and we just don't have that kind of money right now. I don't know if we should stay here where the rent is cheap, or move somewhere else. I guess we will just have to see how our finances are closer to that time. Who knows, I might win the lottery. lol.


On another note, I feel really bummed out because I only got to see Josie for a total of pretty much an hour today. It kills me that I'm always at work because I don't get to see her much and I feel like it's unfair to Tyler because he is stuck in the house all day. I feel like a bad mom because I wasn't even here to kiss her good night. I love that kid more than anything in the world, and I have to keep telling myself she is the reason that I have to go to work every day. I may feel bad about leaving her, but I'm setting up a good foundation for her and that is something I should be proud of. :)

Until tomorrow! :)

Birthday thoughts!

So over the past few days I have really begun to think about Josie's first birthday party. I'm super excited but I don't want to go too over the top with it. Before she was born, Tyler and I picked out a crib set that had a vintage flower design all over it and different size floral patterns in yellow, blue, pink and green pastels. We were completely in love with the pattern and I think instead of doing a "theme" for her 1st birthday, I'm going to go more shabby chic.

Wherever we decide to have it, I'm going to get solid colored table cloths and get some flowers for the centerpieces. I thought a cute idea would be to get live plants and plant them in little painted pots for the centerpieces. Then, when everyone gets ready to leave they can take the plants home with them. I think it would be a cute little party favor. 

I'm not sure on the location yet either. If I knew that the weather was going to be nice, we could have it in the field down by Whitney's house or down at the creek. I really want to have it at the creek because there is a shed/dance floor that's covered just in case it does rain.Another idea that I thought of would be to rent a room at the mall. The rooms are really big though, so to fix that, I thought we could use streamer to separate the eating/food section from the section where the kids could play. I really like that idea so maybe that will be the best idea. I'm not sure yet.



Well, I've cheered up a lot since the other day. I was just having one of those days where everything just sucked. I'm still working on my eating and I'm doing a really good job of keeping it in check. Tyler is helping me out without even knowing it. He's been helping pick out stuff for dinner and actually motivating me to cook. lol.

Last week was my vacation and boy was I happy. I was getting to the point where I was so tired of coming to work and dealing with ignorant people every day. Saturday Beth and I went to the flea market to sell some of the baby clothes that Josie has outgrown. I tried not to show it too much but every time I sold something that she wore, it hurt my heart. I can't believe that she has grown so much already! There weren't many people at the flea market this weekend so we only sold about $50 worth and that was all thanks to Beth's idea of telling people that whatever they could fit in the little black plastic bags they could have for $6. It worked out well.

After we left the flea market we went to the Nissan place to pick up an oil filter then we went to Walmart to have my oil changed and my tires balanced and rotated. They got my car lifted up and all the oil taken out and then realized that they had given me the wrong oil filter at the Nissan place. So they ended up putting a Wal-Mart one on there so I could go back to the dealership.

When I got there, the maintenance part was closed even though they were supposed to stay open until 4pm and it was only 3:30. Johnny Kenemer, the big shot over at the dealership, came out to talk to me. When I explained my problem he was a complete and utter asshole to me because I have a vagina and people with vagina's can't possibly know what they're talking about. He basically stood there and talked to me like I was an idiot and screamed in my face telling me that if I had been going to Walmart to get the oil changed, then maybe Walmart should take care of everything. What an ass! I left and told him that I would be back on Monday for my money back.

So today on my lunch break I headed back over there and went in to talk to the maintenance people. The guy that sold me the oil filter swore up and down that I didn't buy an oil filter from them on Saturday even though I had the damn receipt with the time and date on it. I asked to speak to someone who had two brain cells that were still viable and his manager came over. I explained what was going on and he apologized multiple times and gave me two oil filters instead of just the one that I was owed. Now, was that really that hard?! I definitely won't be going back there again!

Now I'm sitting at work waiting for Todd to get back from the dentist. Guess I'm going to go work on the guest list for Josie's birthday party. :)

Struggling......

Today I have been really struggling. I am ready to admit that I have an eating disorder of sorts. I wouldn't consider myself anorexic and definitely not bulimic, I just go long periods without eating. I know it's not good for me and I don't know why I do it. Ever since I got sick a few years back, I don't feel the hunger cues until I'm so hungry that it hurts, so it's incredibly easy to forget to eat. I know that sounds dumb and a lot of people wouldn't believe that, but it's true.

Then there are other times when I look at food and I'm just disgusted by the thought of it. I don't know what is wrong with me, but I'm working to fix it. I can't really talk about it with anyone because they always get overly worried about me and then they start pressuring me to eat constantly, even when I've just eaten a meal. I know they mean well, but it's hard to go from eating 600 calories or something to eating 2000. I have been trying to gradually increase my amount of food, but sometimes it's just hard.

Today I woke up with a massive headache because I didn't eat or drink enough last night before going to bed. Then, we were getting ready to go swimming and I was just so tired that I layed down on the couch. When I lay down, I don't feel as sick, but when I stand up or start walking, I get really light headed and my insides burn. I ALWAYS eat if I feel dizzy or sick. It's just sometimes I get to that point without realizing it. I'm trying my best to work on it and I vow that I will get healthier!

Don't get me wrong, I don't hate the way I look. I'm actually entirely too conceited for my own good.  I could stand in front of a mirror for hours just staring at myself. I know that sounds bad, but I did just say I was conceited. So this eating thing has nothing to do with my outward appearance. Maybe it's something inside, like when I don't have control over certain things in my life, I can always control how much I eat.

It makes me sad and happy that I'm writing this blog and opening up. Sad because my family may read this, Tyler may read this, and then panic and start shoving food down my throat. I love my family with my whole heart, but I don't need constant reminders on how skinny and unhealthy I am. Trust me, I know. I'm trying to fix it. It makes me happy though, that I have the strength to share this instead of keeping it inside.

I vow that I will be stronger and healthier and that I will reach a healthy weight, not only for myself but for Josephine. I want to be a healthy mom for her. I WILL be a healthy mom for her! :)

Current weight: 113

Great start to my vacation

Well, today was a great start to my vacation. :) We went to a family get together down at the creek and Josie absolutely loved it! She really likes the outdoors, so I guess that's another thing that she takes after Tyler. She was really clingy though. She wouldn't go to anyone except Aunt Jean. She ended up sitting with her for a good 30 minutes. We got some great pictures with Aunt Jean, too.

So lately I've been thinking about getting a boob job. I know for a fact that that would surprise a lot of people, but the girls just aren't the same after having Josie. I used to have full b's almost c's and now they're pitiful little b's (almost a's). lol. I really don't want to go through the pain and not being able to hold Josie for 3 weeks. So I guess for right now it's not gonna happen. I told a "friend" of mine that I was thinking about it, and he asked if "I was tired of my bee stings." Seriously?! I know he meant it jokingly, but that's just rude. There's no reason for that to have been said. I'm not going to continue talking to people if they are just going to be ass hats. Plus, I always have a push up bra and I think I look damn sexy.
 :)

Well, I'm going to work on making my very first invoice to send out. I finally got the huge crochet order done for Darryl and I'll be sending it out on Monday. :)

Until tomorrow!

Life.

I was going to title this blog "everything except Christmas moves so quickly", but I figured that was pretty well summed up in that one word. Life. We all pretend to hate it at some point, but really we're all so incredibly lucky to be here. When I look at Josie, I can't help but smile because she is truly what makes my life perfect day after day. :)

We went down this afternoon to see Mama, Aiden and Beth. Josie was really quiet and didn't really play much. Her little booty is hurting her so bad from the diaper rash. We're taking her to the dr at 4 tomorrow to get it checked. It breaks my heart that she's hurting. :(

Well, I'll let ya know how everything goes at the appointment tomorrow.

Until tomorrow :)

Time flies....

Today has been a very busy day for me. I'm trying desperately to get the order of crochet baby stuff done for Darryl so I can send it to her. After work today, I went to every store imaginable looking for orthodontic bottle nipples for Josie, but no one carries them except ingles and they are out. I ended up buying a set of regular ones for her to try out and then I boiled her other ones. She actually took the new ones really well so I'm going to pick up some more of those tomorrow.

It seems so strange without freya here. We're giving her to Whitney's aunt because the timing is just not right for us to have a dog. I love her to death, but it's just too hectic to have to deal with her and everything else too. I know that Kathy will take really good care of her too, so that's comforting, knowing that she's going to a good home.

I can't believe that Josie is almost a year old! It makes me really sad sometimes because I know that we'll never get these days back. But then again, the bigger she gets the more she'll be able to interact with us. :) I came home from work today and it looked like she had grown a foot while I was gone. She's growing up so fast and I love her so much!

Perfection

Perfection... That's the only way to describe Josephine. She's the most perfect baby girl that we could have ever asked for. As soon as she wakes up and we get her out of her crib, there's a big smile on her face. I love waking up to that every morning!!! And Tyler is the best dad that I've ever seen. You can tell when he plays with her, or when he's comforting her when she's upset, you can just tell that she is his whole world. I'm so incredibly happy to have this amazing family. :)

Fireworks!!!

I'm sorry I haven't logged on lately. :( I've been super busy with trying to get the order for Daryll done. I told her I would have them done in 15 days and I really want to reach that goal. I haven't had a lot of time to crochet though, so it's been pretty hard to do.

We went to the fireworks tonight. :) I thought for sure that Josie would scream and cry but she wasn't even fazed by them. She just watched them and ate her bottle. We had to walk for a super long way and it wasn't really worth it. The fireworks show usually lasts about 30 minutes with an extra 5 minutes finale. Well this year it probably lasted 15 minutes and the finale was really weak and lasted about a minute.

We took Josie up to see grandma and grandpa too. She always cries when we first get up there but then she usually calms down. When she finally cheered up today, she started smiling and jabbering for them. She crawled across the couch too.

I got it on video the first time she crawled the other day. Tyler layed the remote on one of the couch, and then she just went. We were so excited and happy. She's slowly but surely getting the hang of it. She broke my heart yesterday though. Tyler was holding her and I went to get her and she pushed away, then when I got her she started screaming and reaching for Tyler. I know she's too young to know, but it still made me really sad. I hope it's just a phase. Lol.

Anyway, I'm gonna head to bed. I was going to crochet some but I'm just too tired.

Until tomorrow.

She's growing up so fast...

Josie crawled today. I don't mean semi crawled either. She saw what she wanted and she went after it. She was laying on the couch and Tyler layed my iPod in front of her out of reach and she just went for it! She didn't seem to notice that she was on the move though. She just knew that she had gotten what she wanted. :)

Tyler, Josh, Josie and I went up to Holly Creek yesterday to find Litha stones. I figured that Josh would kind of make fun of me for the whole thing but he was actually really into it. We each picked out stones and we are going to carve the rune of what we want for the next year in it, then you're supposed to keep it with you and it'll come true. Josh picked his out and made his into a bad ass necklace. :) Tyler and I haven't had time to finish drawing our runes yet though. Maybe we'll get them done tomorrow.

Well I'm gonna head to bed. We're going to Chattanooga tomorrow to find Josie bug a new car seat. :)

Until tomorrow.

I'm pretty sure that was a tornado....

Yesterday, Tyler and I had made plans to go to Chattanooga to buy Josie a new car seat. So we got up and got ready and we took Josie to Mama's house so she could hang out there and play with Aiden while we were gone. Well, we headed to Dalton and ate lunch at Five Guys. They had been calling for storms all day, but it was still clear out when we left. We got in the car and headed toward Walmart because we were going to run in really quickly and look at their carseats before we drove all the way to Chattanooga. We made it to Walmart (like 3 minutes away from Five Guys) and we looked up and saw black clouds going really quickly towards us. We turned into Walmart and within 30 seconds, the bottom fell out and we couldn't see anything around us or in front of us. The car was rocking and felt like it was going to flip over. I was sooooo scared!

I turned down an aisle to try to find a parking spot but I couldn't see the cars around me. I didn't know if I was in the middle of the aisle or not, not to mention the people running everywhere. It was so scary, we couldn't see anything and then out of nowhere there would be a person running by my car. I looked over to my left and somehow, thank goodness, there was a parking spot there. It was angled the other way, but I had to take a chance and try to park. We were seriously thinking of leaving the car there in the middle of the aisle, but I didn't want someone hitting it and getting hurt because they couldn't see.

We managed to park and I got my purse and my phone ready. The car was slamming from side to side and I just knew that we were going to flip. We knew the direction that the store was in, so we got ready, counted to 3 and jumped out. The second we stepped out, we were soaked. Tyler was in the passenger seat so he went around the back of the car. When I got out, I panicked because I couldn't see him. I was standing beside my door and he was at the back of the car and we couldn't see each other. I ran forward and grabbed his hand and we took off running. I was wearing flats and I lost one on the aisle where the car was, and the other one flew off near the door.

We made it to the doors and the power was off, so the electric doors wouldn't open. There were people standing all inside the door way with their hands over their mouths. Tyler grabbed where the doors are supposed to open and pryed them apart. He got them about 6 inches and then used his body to force them the rest of the way open. NO ONE HELPED HIM! I couldn't believe that they were going to stand there and watch us be blown away. It amazed me.

Once we were inside, we took about 5 steps and the doors blew off. THE HUGE ELECTRIC DOORS BLEW OFF! We took off running to the center of the store. There were no lights on and everyone was panicking. The employees kept telling us to go to the outside walls! I don't think so! We stayed in the middle of the store and started texting. I texted Mama to warn her to get the kids ready because the storm was heading their way. Not even 5 minutes after it hit us, it hit them. I was so terrified but all I wanted to do was get to Josie.

Finally they told everyone that they could leave, so we took the chance. We ran to the car (I found my shoes!) and high tailed it home. Huge trees were down everywhere and power lines were over the roads.

We finally made it home and I was so happy to see Josie! Apparently she got hungry right in the middle of the storm and they had to feed her while taking cover. lol. Mama just got power back a few hours ago and there are still tons of people without power.

I have never been so scared in my life but I'm so glad that everyone made it out safe. I haven't heard yet, but I'm pretty sure it was a small tornado. I will update when I find out.

I'm going to go hug Josie and feed her dinner. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful family!

Until tomorrow! :)

Movies, Dancing, and Watermelon

Tyler and I went to the movies today. I skipped out of work 2 hours early so that we could have a date day. :) We decided to see Super 8 and it was so good! There were a lot of scenes where I was on edge, but there were some funny ones too. And I'm really glad that they decided to show the "monster" in this one. Cloverfield was kind of a disappointment because they didn't show the monster for more than 30 seconds.

I took my crochet into the movies with me and Ty thought that was hilarious. I almost got a whole granny square baby blanket done though. I really need to work more on Katy's shoes. I think I can have them done in a day or two. Who knows. Only tome will tell.


After we got back from the movies, Josie and I went down to Whitney's. Katy and Jeremy came over and we all played Kinect games: we had lot of fun dancing and playing the adventure games. :) We're planning on getting together at least once a week.

While we were there, Josie had her first bites if watermelon. :) She loved it! I'm so glad that she's taking after me in that department. :)
Well, I'm gonna go to sleep because I can't hold my eyes open any more.

Until tomorrow.

Rain,pictures and being kicked out of church...

Today Beth and I had planned to take some modeling pictures of me around Dalton. There is a huge church over near the interstate that has a really pretty area to take pictures. It's the First Presbyterian Church of Dalton. Anyway, so we get over there and it starts pouring rain. We sat in the parking lot trying to wait it out and when it let up some we drove up to Burger King to get some lunch. As we were leaving, we realized that there were trees down everywhere. Apparently the storm was a lot worse than it seemed.

When it finally stopped raining, we decided to go up to the arch ways and take a few pictures. There were only a few cars in the parking lot so we didn't think that we would be disturbing anyone. So we were up there taking pictures and this man comes out and got super hateful and said that he couldn't allow us to be there while they were having a wedding. Wedding? Seriously? It's 7 pm and there are 6 cars in the parking lot. Bullshit. We just weren't rich enough to be there. That's exactly why I dont go to church, because bastard old men like him.

After we left there we went a couple other places then we rushed home because Tyler and I were supposed to have a date night and go to the movies. I texted him on the way home and told him to be ready and I would swing by and pick them up and we could go ahead and go. But of course that didn't happen. I got here and he was just then getting in the shower. So needless to say we didn't have a date night.

Josie and I did however go see Grandma and Grandpa. Josie was smiling and showing them how she can clap and sit up on her own. :) when we first got there, I asked Josie if she wanted her toy and tried to hand it to her and she started to grab it and then shook her head no and turned away from it. Grandma was so excited! Her and Grandpa couldn't believe how much she's grown and how much she can do now. :) they really love seeing her.

Well, I'm going to head to bed. I get to sleep late tomorrow!!! :)

Until tomorrow.

6/10/11

Tomorrow is my last day of what I like to call my "working vacation". Todd is coming back from Florida and I'll have to do actual work again. :( Haha. Today I started working on Katy's shoes that I'm crocheting for her. I'm making them out of 100% cotton yarn and I absolutely love it! It's soooo soft and there are no fuzzies or lint from it. I would love to use it for every project that I do but it's just too darn expensive.

Josie and I went to Mama's house this afternoon and ate supper with them. I can't believe how much my little honey bee has grown! Beth sat her up on the seat at Aiden's picnic table and she sat there for a good while. She loves being independent but she's also beginning to be a little diva and throw fits. I can already imagine what the Terrible 2's are going to be like. It's so funny though because I can just look at Aiden and he'll mind me, but he's a complete rebel when it comes to Mama or Beth telling him to do anything. I bet Josie will be the exact opposite. I bet I'll be chasing her down in the store and telling her no no constantly and she'll just look at me like I'm crazy. lol.

Well, I'm off to bed. I'm the only one opening tomorrow so I can't be late.

Until tomorrow :)

Motivation

So I finished josie's little sandals just in time to go to her doctors appointment. When we got over there everyone immediately noticed them and they couldn't stop talking about them!!!! One of the nurses actually wants me to make her daughter a pair. And one of the other lady's has a friend who might be interested in selling my items in her shop. I'm sooo excited and this was exactly the motivation I needed to get Ten Little Toes Boutique up and running. :)

Josie weighs 19.8 lbs now which seems like it was the same last time she went. He said she was beautiful and healthy as always. They had to stick her finger to test for lead in her bloodstream and to do a CBC. Everything came back clear and she only cried a little. She didn't have a problem with being stuck in the finger, she just didn't like the nurse holding her hand. :)

She's becoming a diva more and more every day. She's beginning to throw fits if we don't do what she wants but she is still responding when we tell her no no, so she hasn't reached the completely defiant stage yet. Lol.

Well I'm off to bed.
Until tomorrow!!!! :)

Had a fun day today. :)

Well, all in all today was pretty fun. Boring... But fun. I kind of wish Todd would hurry up back from vacation. The days seem sooo slow and all I can think about is getting home to my little honey bee.

Josie was feeling better today (thank goodness!) She woke up every 2 hours last night and I think it was because she couldn't breathe through her nose good. Tyler got up with her every time and not once did I hear him complain. He's the best dad! He loves her so so much!

So I've been working all day on a pair of little sandals for Josie. They're hot pink and grey with a white flower on top. The first one turned out really nice but they take forever to make because there are so many little pieces. I hope I can get them done tomorrow before she goes to the dr.

Well, I'm off to bed.
Until tomorrow :)

Started great... Ended bleh.

My boss is on vacation this week so work has been incredibly slow. Today, Whitney and I sat in Todd's office (after cleaning of course) and watched movies and ate brownies. When he's on vacation, it's kind of like a little vacation for us. :)

I tried the new crochet pattern that I bought online. I got one whole baby shoe done and even though that doesn't sound like a lot, after having to redo it 3 times it's quite an accomplishment. Of course when I got home though, I tried it on Josie and it was too small. That would be my luck. Lol. Oh well, I'll give this pair to someone who has a younger baby. Haha.

I attempted my Tuesday workout tonight but it didn't go so well. It was cardio which included knee lifts and shadow boxing. I looked like a complete idiot doing my version of shadow boxing, but my heart rate was up and that's what counts I guess. Then because of some lack of support, I got pissed and quit. I really don't know if I'm going to continue the workouts or not. I'm so incredibly tired of being mocked and called weak. I think there are plenty of people out there who would look at me and say I'm incredibly strong in other ways.

Off to bed. Until tomorrow...

I didn't mean to! Honest!

I made Josie sick. :( so I have effectively ruled out the effects of clorox wipes and germ-x against this big bad flu bug. I was trying so hard tO keep from making her sick. Today I took her over to mama's to hang out and I noticed that her nose was super runny and by the time we left she was in full on flu mode. I hope the little bugger feels better tomorrow.

So I went to the tattoo shop to get my lip ring switched out to a smaller one. Well, that experience did not go well. Apparently the smell of latex gloves will practically close up my air way. Nic was putting the new ring and his glove was right next to my nose and all of a sudden it felt like my throat was on fire. I had to make him wait a few minutes so I could cough. When he was done and I got back to the car, I had to use my inhaler multiple times. All in all, I had to use it 9 or 10 times. I could breathe a lot better but I had the jitters from hell and a major headache.

Needless to say, I'm ready for bed so I think I'm gonna go snooze.

Until tomorrow. :)

Just keep swimming.... Just keep swimming :)

Josie and I had a very long (but fun) day today. Tyler had all of his friends over to hang out so Josie and I went to see Nana. We hung out over there for a while, then we put on our bathing suits and went swimming at Katy's house. It was sooooo much fun!

As soon as Josie got in the water she was kicking her feet like a froggy. :) she loved being in the water so much! We played for about 30 minutes then we got out and ate lunch. We sat under the shed for a while then we decided we would try it again so we got back in. It was just too cold the 2nd time though and Josie was so tired. She ended up falling asleep in her float. Hahaha!

We had so much fun today but we're both completely exhausted. So I'm gonna head to bed now. :)

Until tomorrow. :)

Ugh! Being sick sucks...

Well, no work for me today :( For the past 2 days I've had a sore throat but I didn't really think anything of it. I woke up this morning with a massive head ache, sore throat and I was so congested I couldn't breathe through my nose. I woke up at 7 to get ready for work, but there was just no way that was gonna work out. Every time I sat up I got super light headed and I just felt sooo bad. But the upside of the whole thing was that I got to spend the day with my little honey bee. :)

Well I still feel kinda icky, so I'm gonna head to bed.
Until tomorrow :)

I'm so tired!

Ever since the maintenance man came to lay the new carpet, our house has been a complete and utter distaster, especially upstairs. Josie's room was nothing but boxes and her crib. Well, I finally got all of it taken care of today. I started cleaning this morning around 11 and 8 hours later, Presto Chango! The house is clean and I'm exhausted. I'm so glad I got all of this taken care of though. :)

On a different note, there is a girl on my Facebook page that does such amazing artwork and she is going to paint me a painting! Her name is Savannah McKinney and her artwork is incredible! The painting that she is going to do for me is inspired by the song "Slow Dancing In A Burning Room" by John Mayer. The song doesn't really have any significance to my life, but I really love it. My little authors brain immediately started picturing how the characters in the song would look as soon as I heard the song. I'm soooo excited and I know it's gonna be beautiful!

Until tomorrow. :)
Sam

I'm so behind on this blog!!!!!

Wow! I am so behind on this blog! Every night I think about what I'm going to write about, and then I either get busy or lazy. Hahaha!

So on the 21st it was the day the supposed "rapture" was supposed to happen. Tyler, Josie and I went to the Tennessee Aquarium with James, Cassandra and her little boy Blaze. We had a lot of fun even though I think I came off as being extremely controlling. That's fine with me though, as long as Josie is happy and safe, people can think what they want about me.

Anyway, when the supposed "rapture" was supposed to take place, we were sitting out in the park letting Josie and Blaze play in the water. Of course nothing happened but it was so funny that so many people were spazzing out about it. We got so many good pictures in the park of Josie. There's one specific one that I absolutely love! When we were going home, Tyler let Josie sit up on his shoulders and I got a picture of them walking with the blue sky and sun behind them. It's so pretty!

Anyway, I'll try my best to keep this blog up to date now :)


Until tomorrow. :)

I'm lazy with the blogging....

Every afternoon, I start thinking about this amazing blog that I'm going to write....... then I go to bed. So, sorry if I haven't kept this thing up to date. I don't think anyone actually reads this except me, so it's all good. :)

Day before yesterday, Josie drank out of her sippy cup!! Like, not just a few sips but she actually drank the whole thing! I'm so excited because that means that slowly we are leaving bottles behind. She can hold her sippy better, too. For some reason though, she will not drink juice from it. Only her milk. Oh well, I guess she's just picky. lol.

I've had a really great past couple of days. Tyler and I haven't argued, Josie's been being amazing and everything seems to be great. :) We got xbox live hooked up and yesterday we set up the netflix. I love it! There are a lot of movies that I can just watch instantly now. This is really gonna change movie night. :)

Well, as I'm writing this, I'm supposed to be working, so I'm gonna get back to it.

Epic day yesterday and an awesome new milestone!

Yesterday, Tyler and I went over to James' house and hung out with them. They cooked hamburgers and hot dogs and we played Dance Central on the Kinect. I had a lot of fun this time. :) Usually, I feel kinda like an outsider because everyone over there are Tyler's friends, but this time my friend Cassandra (James' girlfriend) and her little boy were over there. I was even brave enough to dance (poorly) in front of everyone.

After we left their house, we headed over to Dalton to meet Shane and Jordy at the fair.I took some dramamine before going because I always end up getting sick on the rides. The first ride that we rode was called the Power Surge. Basically, two people are sitting beside each other and you're facing two other people. Then this long arm lifts you up and spins you around and your seats spin, too. I was terrified but I'm so glad that I rode it. I remember looking over at Shane and him being completely upside down and screaming. Hahaha!

After that ride we rode the tilt a whirl twice and the bumper cars. Then we got on what we thought was a simple kid ride..... the Rock and Roller. In this one, you spin around on a track, just in a big circle. So I was thinking no big deal. And the cart that you're in spins upside down in a complete vertical 360. But the catch is, Shane and I were already feeling queasy and we thought that you controlled the cart. So we get in and get strapped in (Shane sitting across from me) and then I realize that there's no wheel or anything. Just before the ride started, I yelled and asked the guy if it spun on its own. Yep...... and it spun a lot. Every time I opened my eyes, Shane was across from me looking like he was going to throw up, and trust me if he would have, we all would have been covered. But thankfully, he didn't. After that ride though, he and I were way too sick to ride anything else, even the ferris wheel.

So all in all, I had an amazing day and I'm really glad that I got to spend it with Tyler. :)


Then this morning, I stood Josie up in her playpen and showed her how to hold on to the sides, and she stood up all on her own!!!!!! Another awesome milestone!!!!!!!!!!!

Until tomorrow.

Same old, same old

Today has been a pretty regular boring day. Went to work this morning and worked until 5. Then after I got off work, Tyler and Josie came to pick me up and we went to get our hair cut. His barber and my beautician are now in the same building so it worked out really well. I love Tyler's haircut! And I really like mine as well (it makes the terrible color look a little less terrible. Haha.)

Well, Josie is in the bed and Tyler is gone running so I guess I'm going to head up to bed.

Until tomorrow. :)

My 1st Mother's Day!

Yesterday was my first mothers day! I had so much fun. Josie and I stayed in our PJ's all day and we played with her new connector blocks for the longest time. I feel so proud to be the mother of such a beautiful baby girl!

Yesterday afternoon we went down to my Mom's house to eat dinner with her. I'm so proud to have such an awesome mom. I hope that somehow I can manage to be half the woman that my Mama has been to me. :)

Mama grilled steaks and hot dogs on her new grill, and omg were they good. :) We stayed down there for a really long time and let Josie play. We made her a pallet in the floor to play on and she was trying so hard to crawl, but all she can do is go backward. lol. She crawled (scoot/slid?) about 6 inches towards me on the couch. I don't even think she realized that she was doing it though.

We also have been putting her in her walker but all she wants to do is scoot back. That's how Aiden did, too though and look how he get's around now. :)

Anyway, I got the cutest necklace from Josie. lol. :) It's a charm necklace and it has a little girl charm on it with Josie's birthstone on it. I love it! I showed everyone at work and they kept talking about how pretty it is. :)

The sleep training is going really well, too. All day today she has been taking her naps upstairs in her crib and getting herself to sleep. She's growing up so fast!

So, all in all, I had the best 1st mothers day I could have ever wished for.  I'm looking to many, many more with my beautiful family. I love you guys!

Sleep Training!

I really hate calling it sleep training. Josie is not a puppy! lol. Every night after Josie takes her last bottle we put her in her swing and she goes straight to sleep, then we carry her upstairs to her crib. We never have a problem with her going to sleep...as long as she is in her swing. So, I got to thinking the other day, what happens when she is too big for her swing? So we decided to start doing what they call "sleep training". It's where you put the baby in the crib at night to sleep instead of her usual spot.

So I put her in her crib awake. I was expecting her to cry or at least whine, but I turned on her mobile and she just jabbered at it. I came down stairs and plugged in the monitor and she was completely quiet. All I could hear was the music from her mobile. So I went back up to check on her, because surely she should be a little upset. But when I got up there she was fast asleep. Granted, her butt was in the air, one arm was behind her back and the other was behind her head.... but she was asleep! I readjusted her onto her back and she just sighed and kept on sleeping. I can't believe that this went so smoothly!!!!!!

I love my baby girl!!!!!

Rabies Clinic

Well, today was rabies clinic at work. It's basically our busiest day of the year where we see well over 500 animals for rabies and booster shots. Normally, I draw up shots, but this year I got stuck writing certificates. It wasn't as bad as it normally is, so I didn't have a completely terrible day. I got to hang out with my friend Casandra which was cool. I haven't seen her in forever! I think I have more in common with her than the other girls I work with because she's a mom too. I'm hoping maybe we'll get to hang out sometime soon. Maybe when James teaches me to play the guitar. lol.

After work, I went to Walmart and picked up a bunch of flowers for my flower bed. I wanted to plant them and everything today but they took so long being idiots at the store that now I have to do it in the morning. They went ahead and charged me for 4 bags of potting soil when they didn't even have that kind in stock, so I had to go to customer service and get my money back. Basically, it was a giant pain in the booty.

I just logged on to check my adsense account, and guess what! It's been disabled due to fraudulent clicks. I can completely say now that Google is gay!!! (and not the good gay, where there's shopping and boy talk involved.) Oh well, it was fun while it lasted. Haha.

Well, I think I'm gonna go take Josie upstairs and then do some p90x. :)

Until tomorrow. :)

Had a good day today :)

I had a really great day today. :) I slept really well last night because of the storms, but I'm so glad it didn't get really bad here. I know that we were really close to having tornados like they did in Ringgold. I feel so bad for those people. I really can't even imagine losing everything to a tornado. :(

Josie and I went and saw Mama, Beth and Aiden this afternoon. She's been so fussy all afternoon with a belly ache and her gums hurting. As soon as we got to Mama's though, she calmed down and just sat and stared at Mama. She loves going over there so much!

Well, I'm going to go ahead and head on up to bed. I'm soooooo tired!

Until tomorrow!

No new blog tonight :(

Well, I just wanted to let everyone know that there are a lot of severe thunderstorms moving through our area so I won't be posting a new blog tonight. I'll be back tomorrow though!

Well.....yeah

That just about sums it up. Today hasn't been the greatest day. Josie woke up this morning an hour early. I don't consider that a bad thing though. I look at it as me getting to spend extra time with her before I have to go to work.

Anyway, while at work I got some pretty shitastic texts and the shitfest continued when I got home. I know everything with this particular brand of shit will work out, but I hope it's sooner rather than later.

After work, Mama, Aiden and Beth all came over and visited with Josie. :) Aiden played with Freya for a long time and kept picking up Josie's keys when she would drop them. She's in that stage now where she keeps dropping stuff just to see if you'll pick it up. I guess that means that she's learning cause and effect now. :) Or she's learning how to make us her slaves. lol.

Well, I'm gonna get in bed because I have to work tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day than today was.

Until tomorrow.

Easter :)

We had a great Easter today!

First thing this morning, we got up and got Josie ready to go to the Easter church service with Tyler's parents. When she left with them, the house felt so empty. It's odd when me and Tyler are both here, but Josie is with someone else. lol. We had the tv on Nick Jr. for her when she left and we sat and watched it almost the entire time she was gone. haha. I think those shows make you lose brain cells. :)

After we got Josie back, she and I went to see Grandma and Grandpa. We had a great time up there and she wasn't even really fussy. We hunted eggs with Aiden and took a lot of pictures. Grandma and Grandpa were so excited to see her! We should definitely bring her up there more often.They can't get over how much she has grown. She weighs almost 20 lbs now! :)

We went to Mama's house next and ate dinner with her. I wish we could have spent more time down there but it was Josie's bed time so we had to get her home. Mama got her an Easter basket filled with toys and candy. She got her a little dolly and for some reason it really cracks Josie up. She just stares and stares at it. 

Now I'm back at home and Josie is sleeping in her crib. I'm exhausted and I feel like I'm coming down with the stomach virus that everyone has had. I think I'm just gonna head on up to bed.

Until tomorrow. :)

Urg :(

No movie night tonight. :( We were planning on everyone coming over, eating pizzas and watching a new zombie movie but everyone is either busy, sick, or working. Oh well, maybe it can be kind of a stay at home date night for me and Ty. And there's a bright silver lining to this otherwise shitastic turn of events: I don't have to put on makeup. :) Yay! lol.

I've been having a really good weekend with Josie. Beth and I set up her backdrops last night and took her Easter pictures and they are soooo beautiful! Beth does a really good job. We got one of Josie sitting in the basket acting like she's the Vanna White of Easter. She's holding up an egg and smiling so big. :)

Tomorrow, Josie is going to church with Carol for the Easter service. Even though I'm not Christian, I'm ok with Josie going to the service because she doesn't really know what's going on. When she gets older, though, I want her to know about a lot of different religions so she won't feel forced into Christianity like so many people around here are. I know that she's her own little person and she will believe in whatever suits her and I will accept her for that. :)

After she gets back from church we have to go up to my Grandma's house and hunt Easter eggs with Aiden. Then we have to go down and hang out with Mama and eat dinner. We're having ham (YES!) and I think we might let Josie try some mashed potatoes or something. :)

Until tomorrow. :)

Coheed concert!!!!!!!!!!!

So, the other day we went to a concert but I'm just now getting to write about it. lol. Tyler, Josh and I went to the Tabernacle in Atlanta to see Coheed and Cambria. It was so incredibly amazing. I had seen them once before in concert but that was at the Gwinnett Center and they were just little dots on stage. This time around, they were so close!

We took Josie to visit Carol (where my mom was going to pick her up from) before we left for Atlanta. I know a lot of people would laugh at me, but it hurt so bad to leave her. I knew she was safe and that she would be taken care of, but I still had a hard time leaving her. This was going to be the first night that me and Josie had ever spent apart. The whole week leading up to the concert, any time I would think of it, I would get really anxious. I mean, I had her with me every second of every day for 9 months and then every night after that for 7 months I knew that she was always where I could get to her quick. It killed me to think that I was nearly 3 hours away from her.

Anyway, so I finally managed to pry myself away from her and we started on our way to Atlanta. The trip went pretty smoothly, unlike our last trip to Atlanta where we got super lost and ended up in like South Carolina at 2 am. Tyler drove most of the way down but I took over when we started getting into Atlanta. The only trouble we had was finding the right streets to turn onto in downtown. They are one way streets (I defied this law rather well I might add) so they were very confusing. We stopped and asked a valet where the Tabernacle was and he gave me some really backwards directions but we finally found it. We could tell that we were at the right spot by the huge line that circled the block.

The venue was unbelievable! I had heard that you were close to the stage but I didn't realize just how close. Josh and Tyler stayed in the middle of the crowd but I made my way to the side. What with the mosh pits, 1000 degree temp in there, and my iffy blood sugar, I thought that was the best move. lol. I really wish I could have stayed up front with them though. I couldn't see really well from where I was and I ended up getting elbowed in the face anyway. lol.

We decided that Josh could drive us home because I am a major nervous wreck in big cities. Especially if I don't know where I'm going. I'm a very controlling person and I hate not having control over the situation. If I've been there before, then I'm ok. But if I haven't, I'm gripping the steering wheel and freaking out the entire time. We finally made it home around 2 am. I was so exhausted that I just went straight to bed. :) I was pretty jazzed too because I got to sleep late the next morning.

When we went to get Josie the next morning, she was so happy to see us! She kept saying dada and mama over and over. We have such a perfect baby girl!

I really can't wait to see them in concert again, though. They put on such a great show! And I love the fact that the first set was acoustic. It was my fav! And now I have a new fav song by them (Pearl of the Stars). All in all, I think we had a really kick ass time and I can't wait to do it again!

Swing #3....another one bites the dust

I've had a pretty good day today. :) It was storming really bad as I was leaving for work so I was late. I could hardly see two feet in front of me and I was behind what looked like everyone in Chatsworth. Anyway, I finally got to work and clocked in, then I had to take Freya out and try to convince the little bugger to go potty even though it was raining. For some reason she is completely obsessed with water. She'll drink and drink until she throws up. Needless to say, the never ending rain puddles outside did not go over well.

Finally, though, the sun came out and I got to come home and see Tyler and Josie for lunch. This is seriously always the high light of my mornings. :) After work I went to the tanning bed and got my butt scorched (urg!). But then I got to come home to my beautiful baby girl. Every time I see that little honey bee I fall in love all over again. :)

Mama, Beth and Aiden came by to see Josie. She loves seeing them soooo much! She kicks her legs and swings her arms and gets super excited. She really loves seeing Aiden because he's another little person. :)

Well, the only super bad thing of the day just happened. Josie's swing just broke. This swing is our life saver and it just commited suicide. I have no idea what is wrong with it. All I know is that it will play music, but it won't swing. I'm beginning to hate Fisher Price. This is the third swing that we have had, that has broken. I'm going to start pulling my hair out now. I found the booklet so I guess I will have to call them tomorrow and see what I can do about it. My guess is that they will say that I'm shit out of luck. If it ain't one thing, it's another.

Oh well. It is what it is.

Until tomorrow!

O...M....G

My life is so fast paced right now. Finally, after a few weeks, I got my blog up and running. Now I'm just wondering when my life is going to slow down. It feels like I'm stuck in fast forward when I wish I could find the pause button. Between work, cleaning, cooking, Josie and errands, I hardly have time to think. I'm just so glad to have Tyler to help me keep my head on straight.

I finally took the tutu's that I made down to the Prom Dress shop in Eton. I'm hoping that they will be big sellers. :) I kinda got my facebook page up for my boutique but I didn't have a pic on the computer at work so I couldn't finish it. I'm hoping to eventually be able to get an Etsy account. :)

Hope you like the new blog!!!!

p.s. If I ever mention you in a blog and you don't like what I say, I'm sorry. I just want this blog to be a place where I can say what I want, when I want. I'm not censoring anything, so ya better be nice :)

Rain, rain go away

Tyler and I went to his friend, James' house last night. I had a pretty good time. At least I wasn't sitting around being bored this time. I really don't get it though. I try to talk to Tyler's friends and get in on conversations but they all look at me like I'm an idiot. It was really getting on my nerves.

Josh got there late, but I was glad he was there because he always talks to me. But then some kid named Blake started "playing" the guitar. (I'm using the term playing very loosely here.) He had it hooked up to a huge amp and he was blasting it right in our faces. Then they were mocking Josh for playing bass. Anyway, he got super pissed and left because he didn't want to put up with them anymore.

After that we played ping pong for a while. One of Tyler's other friends played ping pong with us so that was pretty cool. James, the guy whose house we were at, acted like he was pissed the whole night. He said like 2 words to Tyler for the whole night and I think it was because I was there. I don't think I'm gonna go back now because no one will talk to Ty while I'm there. I really don't get why I'm being treated like a leper.

On top of being an outsider all weekend, it's been raining pretty much constantly. It's really dark and gloomy outside. Oh well, maybe next week will be prettier and warmer.

Until tomorrow :)

A friendship gone

Well, I mailed TJ's ring and everything to him today. As I was putting everything in the envelope last night I was crying. I know it's stupid, he's made it clear since he got back from overseas that he has no desire to be my friend. But we were best friends all through high school. It just feels like a piece of my past is gone. It just really sucks.

And to think that the reason he doesn't want to hang out with me is because I have Josie. I am so lucky to have such an amazing little girl that it amazes me that he could not want to be around me because I have her. I know that if that's how he feels then it's best that he's not in my life. But my heart still aches for the friend that I used to have.

Had an awesome day :)

Normally on the weekend I'm cleaning constantly, trying to fix the mess that's always made during the week. Well, this weekend I decided against that. I decided that I can handle a slightly messy house if that meant that I could play more with Josie. So yesterday we went to the park and took lots of family pictures. Beth is supposed to be uploading them soon. Then today we went to see Grandma and Grandpa.

I don't know what it is, but every time we go up there, Josie starts screaming any time she sees any men. It doesn't matter who it is. I think it's because she's always around women and the only man she ever sees is Tyler. Anyway, she finally calmed down and let Daddy and Grandpa hold her so we got some really good pics. I can't wait to see how they turn out!

Until tomorrow. :)

Hanging out and shooting people

Well tonight was pretty fun. I went with Ty to James' house to hang out. We played Badmitton for a while when we first got there then we just kinda hung out and listened to music. It was pretty awkward because I didn't really know anyone there other than James, Josh and Ty so I ended up just kinda sitting over by myself. All in all though it was pretty fun. I got to shoot everyone in the stomach with an airsoft gun, so that was pretty fun :)

Well, I'm exhausted and I feel terrible so I'm gonna head to bed.

Until tomorrow.

It's been a long day

I went to work from 8:30 to 5, then to the tanning bed, then home to help Beth make a diaper cake for the baby shower. Wow I'm tired. We just finished the diaper cake and it's almost 11pm. It turned out so nice! It was zebra stripe and hot pink with pink daisies on it.

Well, I'm gonna head to bed. I'm so tired!!!!

Until tomorrow.

For Maddie :)

About a month ago I recieved a link to a blog about a mother who had just lost her beautiful baby girl. I cried as I read her posts and to this day, I read her blog daily. She is a very strong woman and a wonderful mother. Through Maddie, I have come to realize that life is precious and I cherish every moment I have with my little honey bee. I believe that Maddie's purpose in this world was to help moms like me become better parents and cherish every moment with their little ones (even when they wake up at 3 am). lol.

Maddie's mom asked everyone to take pictures of their kids today in memory of Maddie. Here are some that I have taken. Josie is wearing bows for Maddie. :)

Urg!! Stupid maintenance man!

If there's one thing that I can't stand, it's being lied to and thats exactly what my maintenance man has done yet again. He told me last week that he would lay my carpet upstairs next week. Well, I called him to see what day he was going to do it, and (big surprise) he told me it would be another week or two. So I called the landlord and he was so hateful and said that he was going to call me back but of course he never did. All of this is really driving me insane and I really wish that he would get the show on the road.

In other news, lol, I just found Josie's little sleeper from when she was a newborn. I can't believe how tiny it is! We layed it on her and it only came to her knees. I'm so happy that she's big and healthy, but sometimes I really miss her being so tiny and cuddly. :)

Food fight!

Or at least that's how it seemed at dinner time tonight. Josie discovered that she can spit her baby food out and make it go everywhere. And I really mean EVERYWHERE! It was so funny to see the expression on her face when she realized what she could do. She smiled so big! And every time I would give her a spoonful of food she would spit it, then kind of chuckle. I was trying to make a sad face so she could see that it wasn't a good thing, but all I could do was laugh. She's so gorgeous and perfect, even with pears all over her little face. :)

Until tomorrow.

Josie is so big!

I can't believe how big our little honey bee is! We went this past weekend and bought her a few more sleepers and you can tell that she won't be in them for long. Now I wish that I would have gotten all 9 months instead of the majority of them being 6 months.

She's had a belly ache some this afternoon so she's been kind of fussy. She woke up at 3 am this morning because she was hungry and had a belly ache. Even though I was really tired and I didn't want to leave my warm bed, I loved sitting with her and feeding her. I love those little moments where it's just me and her in the dark living room all bundled up. I'm so happy to have my little honey bee. :)

So I have been reading this blog ever day about a woman whose baby passed away at 4 months old. I got the link through a message on Facebook and normally I would just read it and move on. But this blog really stuck in my mind and so I follow it daily. Reading about the pain that this mom feels and how much she misses her little girl reminds me that I am so lucky to have a beautiful healthy little girl. It makes me so thankful to have every second with her. Well she's asleep now so I'm gonna head up to bed.

Until tomorrow.

Fun at the park :)

I have had such an amazing day with my little honey bee. Finally, after all the cold weather, we got a day in the 70's so that we could enjoy some outside time. Since it was such a pretty day, we decided to take Josie to the park and let her get some fresh air. She seemed really indifferent to the whole thing. Haha. But all in all we had a lot of fun.

When we got back, I told Tyler he could shoot me with his air soft gun. I have never seen two guys so excited about wanting to shoot me. lol. I shot Ty first and I got him really good in the chest. Then he shot me but it didn't hit me really hard so his mark is a lot worse than mine. lol. Then I got to shoot Josh in the chest which was hilarious.

They told me that I could come play airsoft with them, but I know I won't be so great starting out and I don't want them picking on me and saying that it's just because I'm a girl. Plus, I'm too pretty to have all those marks on me. lol. I still think I might go try it one day. Who knows.

Well, Josie is in dream land, so I'm gonna download some music then I'm gonna follow suit. :)

BTW, I'm also working on a new layout for my blog, so trust me, it'll look better soon.

Until tomorrow.

She's a Daddy's girl :)

Well, she truly is a daddy's girl. Look how happy she is with him. :) I'm so lucky to have him, he's an amazing dad and boyfriend. Tomorrow is our 3 year anniversary and I'm really happy. We're going to take Josie to my mom and we're going to go see a movie and eat dinner.

Today has been long and has gone by really slowly. The lady finally brought me my puppy but I still can't bring her home. That lady is such a poor excuse for a woman. That puppy looks so terrible! She has the mange so bad that almost all of her hair is gone and there were fleas all over her. She said that she had dipped her twice already, but I know that she was lying through her teeth. If she had dipped her, she wouldn't have looked so bad. I hope that she finds homes for the other pups too because I'm sure they are just as bad.

Every day I'm going to add a new pic of Josie and one of Freya,(our new puppy) so that everyone can see how much they are growing and changing. I can't wait to bring little Freya home. It'll be about 3 or 4 weeks before I can bring her home though. I don't want her around Josie until she's well. One good thing though is that while she's at work I can work on training her and everything.

So, anyway, Josie got to see her Nana today. She loves seeing her and hanging out there. She always smiles so big. :) She is going to watch her tomorrow afternoon where we can go out to dinner.

We also saw Shane this afternoon. Well, pretty much we went in his room and watched him play WoW. lol. He finds out the results from his biopsy tomorrow. I'm sure it's nothing, but we're still anxious to find out.

Well, it's pretty late so I'm going to head to bed and try to get some sleep. Gotta wake up early for work tomorrow.

Until tomorrow....

Had a busy day!

We took Josie back to see Dr. Azzouz today. He said that she is doing better but he is giving her some Prednisone to help break up the congestion in her chest. I really hope it works because you can feel her chest rumbling when you hold her. We also had to take her to her 6 month checkup at the WIC office. The lady over there told us to start giving her water in a cup with handles. Seriously?! She doesn't even hold her bottle yet. Wow. lol

Then after we left there, I had a tattoo appointment to get the tattoo of Josie's footprint touched up. I stopped by and picked Josh up then I went on over there. My appointment was at 6 and we got there on time, but he was working on someone else and they said that it would be about 45 minutes before he could start on mine. I finally got back there at about 730. It's ridiculous. Both times I've gone there, I've ended up waiting over an hour when I had a scheduled appointment. If he wants to run a business, he should really respect his customers. After all, I was paying him, not the other way around.

All in all, I've had a pretty good day. Hopefully tomorrow will be good, too.

Until tomorrow.

She's so big!

Well, Josie is officially in size 3 diapers now! :) I can't believe she's that big already. I was going through her baby clothes yesterday and the newborn clothes look soooo tiny! It's hard to believe that she was ever really that small. She has two doctor's appointments tomorrow, so she's going to be exhausted by the end of the day. I can't wait until it's warmer so that we can get her out and about more.

It was so stormy and gloomy outside today. I got a little worried there for a while because they said that the winds could get up to 50 mph. Luckily it was just some wind and heavy rain and there wasn't anything major. I was so scared that something would happen and I wouldn't be able to get home to Tyler and Josie.

The lady that was supposed to be bringing my puppy today never showed up. After about 10 texts and a couple of phone calls I finally tracked her down. She said that she couldn't bring the puppy because it was storming. I don't know about her car, but mine came equipped with windshield wipers for just such an occasion. lol. She texted me again and said that she was bringing the puppy on Thursday. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Well, Josie is fussing and wants out of her bounce-a-roo. She loves that thing for about 10 minutes but then she get's pretty bored. lol. Until tomorrow.....

So much fun!

I have had the best weekend! Yesterday was the "adventure" to Chattanooga. I can't tell you how many times I was scared almost to death on the interstate. That thing is just not my cup of tea. But we finally made it and we had a lot of fun, too.

After we finally made it back, I got to go to Whitney's party and had a great time. It was too funny! She's pretty cool and she lives a few apartments down, so I think I'm gonna start hanging out with her more.

Then, this morning, Beth texted me and asked if I could watch Aiden. I said sure because, A: they watch Josie whenever I ask, and B: I wanted to see what it would be like to have a baby and a 2 1/2 year old. Tyler and I want another baby when Josie is two or three.

Aiden and I have been playing outside for about 2 hours. He saw some kids outside from the apartment next door and the little boy (probably 4 years old) looked at Aiden's shirt, then proceeded to tell him that Elmo was stupid and he was a poop face. So, of course I did what any self respecting aunt would do, I told the kid that he was a brat and Aiden didn't want to play with him anyway. lol. Aiden didn't care either way, he just said, "Byeeeeee!" and then walked away. I could probably learn a few things from this kid.

Now, Josie and Aiden are both down for their naps. The only problem is, Josie's been asleep for about an hour and she's due to wake up any time now and Aiden just layed down. Well, I'm going to go work on Josie's first year shutterfly book. :)

Had a fun day!

I had a really awesome day today. Me, my sister, Josh and Ryan all went to the book store in Chattanooga. I had to go get Josie some books for storytime, she loves looking at all the bright pictures. :) After we left The bookstore, we eventually found petsmart and got a bunch of stuff for the new puppy. I can't wait to get her! The lady is bringing her to me on Monday so we really need to think of a name for her. Lol.

Well I'm off to go clean the house...

Josie is sick :(

Yesterday was a very long day. We had to take Josie to see the dr because she hasn't been able to keep anything down for a while. I'm so scared that she's going to get dehydrated. Dr. Azzouz looked at her and said that she has bronchitis and the stomach virus. He gave her some more meds so maybe they will help her get over it.

I just can't understand why babies get sick! I know for a fact that if me and Ty could get sick in her place, we would in a heartbeat. Tyler's friend's baby is sick, too. He has RSV, though. It really breaks my heart to see any baby sick, but especially my own. Even though she doesn't feel good, she still smiles and jabbers all the time.

She woke up this morning at 3 am because she was hungry again. She loves the taste of Pedialite, but it really doesn't fill her up. After she drank her bottle, she went right back to sleep though, so that was good. I hope she gets better quickly. I hate seeing my Honeybee sick :(

My very first blog post :)

I am so excited about starting a blog. Before, I always wanted to start one but I never had anything to talk about. Now I have my beautiful little Josephine. She is like a story that unravels a little more each day, and I'm always anxious to see what turns that story will take.

Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Samantha and I am 22 years old and I am the mother of a beautiful 6 month old baby girl. She is the reason I do everything I do. Not a day goes by that I don't feel so thankful for having her in my life. Tyler, my amazing boyfriend, who I love and adore, is the best father anyone could ask for. Josie loves him so much and when she sees him her whole face lights up.

As I'm writing this, Josie is swinging beside me, sucking on her hand. I'm still so amazed that she's mine. It seems like just yesterday that we were heading to the hospital to have her. I remember those first days, how stressed and exhausted Tyler and I were, and I'm amazed. Then, it seemed that the world was turned upside down and every second of every day was nerve wracking. Now, I look back on those days and I can't help but smile. I've never loved someone as much as I love her. I never knew it was possible.

Well, I hear the familiar little grunts and squeals of excitement which means she wants to play.

Until tomorrow. :)

Samantha